Tuesday, December 14, 2004

Some (more?) words on stress

I've been ill - again. I think it was my third - let's call it a cold - this season, or was it the fourth?

This is what's been happening recently. Last Friday I finished a paper and submitted it to a big Journal. Then on Monday I was the host for a visit from a possible host for a research stay abroad next year, which went well and was altogether a very pleasant meeting, but not without tension - not because he isn't nice, but because I wanted him to have a good time. On Tuesday I got some administrative details away from my desk. Then, on Wednesday, I "worked at home". Actually, what I did was kick back, read some books, watch TV and prepare for choir rehearsal, i.e. rest. Which I probably needed.

On Thursday I woke up ill.
Getting out of bed, the world was literally spinning. But, that sometimes happens when you get up too fast, so I thought little more of it, until I had eaten and dressed and the world STILL kept spinning. The symptoms were very similar to the infamous virus on the balance nerve, and I sincerely hope that's not it. However, because of a very deep antipathy toward the work to be done, I had a sneaking suspicion that it was mostly a rotten work moral. So I rested some, and made a valiant effort to get up.
I walked like a drunk lunatic and almost felt like throwing up.
So I stayed in. For four days.

The past week has had me reflecting on the different stress symptoms I've had over the past years.
¤ I blamed my stiff jaw and subsequent tension headaches on teeth movement, but the dentist wasn't convinced and suggested a acrylic splint to alleviate tensions overnight.
¤ After having a neck with literally no lateral movement, the mouse is on the left side, for variation.
¤ I've had three occurrences lasting for around a week with shortness of breath-anxiety.
And finally, now the world was spinning.

It had it's moments. For instance, I was totally insulated from both internal and external impulses, which means I didn't waste a single moment on thoughts and worries.

Can't all be natural.
But as stress go, it's not a horrific list.
.....If I add mood swings, though.

Let's not!

1 comment:

Christense said...

Jeg er syk nå.
Det er sikkert fordi jeg er tilbake igjen.
Jeg liker å være tilbake igjen,
(ja, det er ikke det)
men det kommer til å ta noen år før jeg bor her igjen.